I will be honest with you, my readers. I have struggled every day for the past three weeks just to survive, trying to direct my thoughts away from ending my life.
These last five years have been so very difficult for me. As I review the court records I see how dishonest everyone was when they handled my case and how everyone from my shit ass lawyers, to the insane judges, to the morally corrupt Texas AG seemed as if they were out to slaughter me and they have been very successful.
Then this past year the American government got in on the bullying. The IRS said I owed them another $1500 for 2011. It was a case of identity theft and it took me 8 damn months to get them to acknowledge that. I don’t know if they would have ever acknowledged it if I hadn’t contacted Senator Ted Cruz and asked his office to intervene.
Yesterday as the sky was exploding with a thunderstorm I got another letter from the Texas AG. I have very little money left but they proceeded to put a lien against my IRA. Today I got another letter stating that they would liquidate my IRA if I didn’t respond within ten days.
I didn’t think that they could touch someone’s retirement. The broker who had helped me set up my IRA said that he had never seen that happen to anyone else. I guess no one else is on the shit list of the Texas AG.
It is ironic that my ex-husband was in arrears double the amount that I am currently in. The Texas AG didn’t put a lien against any of his income, retirement accounts, or any of his property.(He had two houses and four cars)
I don’t know how much more I can take before I just give up.
I know this is heavy and I usually try to use a sense of humor to lighten things up. If I could just stop crying maybe I could get to that place again. It seems that every time I pick myself up I get slammed back down again, so what is the point of even trying.
I have seriously thought about ending my life but with my luck I wouldn’t be successful, so I haven’t thought it all the way through. So don’t call the crazy police yet.
I ask for your prayers. I know God loves me but I just can’t figure out why He isn’t helping me fight this battle. I suspect I am going through this battle because I am trying to follow God’s calling on my life to be a Christian writer. Ever since I got really serious about writing it seems as if the devil has had an open door policy on my finances and my welfare.
For those of you who may think it is because I didn’t honor God with my tithe. Well, you are wrong. I always gave him 10%, sometimes more.
I am worried most that I will lose my house. I have only one house, my ex has three. I love my home though and right now it is my shelter, not only for me but also my daughter and my son when he comes over.
I hope I haven’t scared anyone off but if honesty scared you off then you would have left sooner or later anyway.