I did something yesterday that I haven’t done for quite awhile. I volunteered to be involved in a church ministry.

Some of you probably think that I should have been involved in church ministry a long time ago. I agree, but you see I was many years ago and I got burned out.

It was right after my divorce when my mind, soul and body were crushed by the failure of my marriage. I started to attend a church that had a Divorce Recovery group. Unfortunately the group’s leader was still not over his divorce, which had happened 9 years earlier. So most of the time I was more concerned about him than me.

For the record if you are more concerned about your therapist, than you are about your own problems when being counseled, something is not right.

I became very busy in that church. I was involved in choir, even though I could not sing, I became an Awana’s teacher, even though I don’t have a calling to teach and that is also where I started writing Christian plays.

I was at that church almost every night with my kid’s hands grasped firmly in mine. Busyness is a very addictive distraction which can get in the way of healing.

At the end of six months I was exhausted and I realized a tragedy had occurred. I had lost my connection with God. Which by the way is the only way to attain true healing.

So after that experience I have become hesitant and cautious about church ministry. I have set in stone a mantra that if something doesn’t bring my closer to God it is not worth my time.

Yesterday during the orientation to the new ministry I am volunteering for, the pastor pointed out a verse. The verse was Ephesians 4:16, “He makes the whole body fit together perfectly. As each part does its own special work, it helps the other parts grow, so that the whole body is healthy and growing and full of love.”

The key phrase within this verse is “As each part does its own special work.”My special gifting from God is writing for him. It is not singing, it is not teaching and it is not web development. It is writing. I am sure as I launch into this new ministry I may find that I learn a lot because it is a mobile app but that is not why I am volunteering. I am volunteering because I have a platform which God has blessed and I can write about this new ministry.

I have always wondered why God allowed me to have ADHD and did not give me a voice which was pleasant for other people to hear. I would love to be more organized and clean and ADHD does not lend itself to that reality. I would also love to be able to sing beautifully but God hasn’t given me that gifting either.

If He had made me OCD and organized, I doubt that I would be the writer that I have become. If he had given me an awesome voice I am not sure that I would have chosen to be a Christian singer.

What He did give me is a gift for writing, that is my “special work” and I am very blessed to have that as my calling in life.