As I was reading in Exodus this morning I was astounded at the insecurity that was so apparent in Moses.

When God approached him with the plan to free the Israelites from Egyptian rule he cowered. He said he couldn’t speak right and that he spoke slow.

He gave so many excuses as to why he could not do God’s work.

God encountered each excuse with a brilliant display of His power; changing a shepherd’s staff into a snake, making a hand leprous and then healing it.

Still Moses did not realize that this was not about his weakness this was about God’s power.

I know how Moses feels.

It was revealed to me many years ago that my calling for my life was to be a Christian writer.

I piddled away at a novel and after spending ten years writing it I finally realized one thing. That I needed to rewrite it again before publication. UGH!

I also had three children and needed to make an income to support my family. So writing took a backseat in my life during those years.

Then in 2012 I decided to quit nursing and devote my time to rewriting that novel. I didn’t finish it because it became overwhelming to me and I needed to step away from it for a while.

After researching what I needed to do to get it published, (whenever that happens, sigh…) I realized I wanted to self publish. Which is the reason I needed to launch a blog for marketing the novel and establishing a fan base.

There was only one problem with that idea and that was that I didn’t know the first thing about launching a blog. I am a complete dufus when it comes to computer literacy.

So I snagged a friend who could launch the blog for me and made some fajitas to repay him.

I started writing the blog and would have given up if I had stayed with WordPress as my host. Thankfully I changed hosts and when I began to go to the C panel to check my stats I was sure that they were wrong. They were way too high. I ignored them because surely I was not that well received.

I didn’t know how to get google ranked. I did not have any tricks up my sleeve to gain traffic. I hadn’t a clue as to how I got noticed by one of the famous bloggers called Opinionated Man, who not only noticed me but also allowed me to be a guest author on his site, Harsh Reality. (Thanks Jason)

All I knew was that I loved to write and that God wanted me to be a Christian writer.

I had so little knowledge about blogging it is embarrassing, but God was not embarrassed in the least. He has spread my writing throughout the world. I hope my blog has touched the hearts of people. I also hope that my blog has gently nudged them back into the embrace of God as He has increased the traffic beyond my wildest dreams.

When you don’t have much confidence in your own ability, God’s power and wisdom can flow through your life unhindered by arrogance. Maybe that is why Moses was chosen to lead the people out of Egypt.