Once again I met with my family of origin. Once again I felt as if I wasn’t really a part of my family. I felt invisible. It is very painful to be a part of a family when you feel this way. To be honest with you, I am so glad I don’t live close to any of the members of my family.

I have my life in Texas which is a wonderful life filled with an awesome career, friends and a lovely daughter which I get to see most days. My sons are keeping in touch better than ever and my house is in good order.

If anyone would ask my family where I worked, they probably couldn’t tell you. Nor could they tell you how many friends I have. I don’t offer information if it is not asked for and they never ask.

Being invisible is good in some ways though. My sister insulted me at a family dinner and because I was invisible to my family nobody noticed the tears running down my cheeks.

So this morning I was praying about this situation and reflecting on how to handle the feelings of rejection. I opened up the Bible to Psalms 45:10-11, “Listen to me, O royal daughter, take heart to what I say. Forget your people and your family far away. For your royal husband delights in your beauty, honor him, for he is your Lord.”

This verse was most likely written by King Solomon for his bride but symbolically it represents the love that Christ has for the church.

After I read this I called my company and arranged to go back to work tomorrow and also received a call from a cherished friend. I realized that although I don’t feel like I am loved by my family I feel like I am loved by so many other people and the greatest of these is my Savior, Jesus Christ. Who needs a love from a family when you got that? lol
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