I mentioned to my audience an unusual event which happened to me a few weeks ago. I saw the start of a rainbow in a field right off the highway. I have been meditating on that event for quite some time. Hoping I don’t forget the wonder of it all and looking to God for enlightenment

This morning I was thinking of how I felt as I was driving through the storm. I was scared, worried and anxious. I was driving a rental car and I was worried that it may start to hail. This dangerous storm reminded me of a time from my past.

Several years ago I went through a terrible storm in my personal life. Through this storm the feelings of betrayal, hurt and fear were daily companions to my every thought. It wasn’t just people who betrayed me, I also felt betrayed by God.

The thought occurred to me that maybe I should just abandon God. I mean after all, he hadn’t listened to my prayers and in this instance I was sure the evil party was winning. Why believe in a God who does not support justice right?

There was just one teensy problem with that idea. God has consistently been the one I run to when I am hurt. I didn’t have a whole lot of experience running to myself. I had wonderful friends during this time in my life but I didn’t want to call them at 3 am when the terrifying thoughts of betrayal came storming into my dreams. I would crumble into tears and call upon my God at that time, pleading with Him to take the pain away.

I am ashamed to admit that I didn’t think of looking for a rainbow. I was focused on the storm. The memories of that horrible time in my life still bring me to a point of tears. Now as I am looking back, I see the sunlight of God’s wisdom shining through my tears.

The reason why I started this blog was because of that storm. I have grown my closer to my adult daughter because of that storm. Those who attacked me and betrayed me are now the ones who are hated. I continue to remain loved. It has expanded the reach of my testimony because I can relate to other women or men who have gone through this same kind of storm.

When you are going through a storm with the wind of betrayal pelting your heart and hate beating on your back it is very difficult to see a rainbow. When evil wins the fight for justice and no one is in your corner, it can feel as if you are surrounded by darkness.

Yet I ask you to remember one fact about rainbows. There has never been a rainbow without a storm and sunlight. Rainbows are formed when sunlight intersects a raindrop.

I know firsthand how vicious a storm can be but I also have seen the beginning of a rainbow…