For some reason when I get into a company I become aware of burdens. I guess God gave me a personality which draws the hurt and anger out of people and they start confiding in me. I usually can handle most things fairly well but lately I have been humbled by my inadequacy in this department

I stopped by the office one day to pick up supplies and had some time alone with the woman who files the insurance claims for the company I work with. She shared with me some of the difficulties she was having because of a certain nurse that was working in Dallas. She said the management was not doing anything about it.

Well in the Bible it says to share one another’s burdens doesn’t it? So I listened and shared with her that I didn’t think I was getting enough work to pay my bills. I had been asking again and again for more work but hadn’t received enough. I knew I did my job well. I had just had a good review. I knew the nurse that was the problem was getting more than enough visits so I became angry. I did more than carry this burden. I owned it and let anger and bitterness start their dastardly trek through my heart and mind.

It got to the point where I felt as if I needed to look for another job. I mean, after all, I needed to pay my bills and if this company wasn’t going to do that, well… they were NOT the only pebble on the beach. I became quite incensed and that may actually be an understatement.

I arranged some interviews and thought about changing direction in my career. I interviewed with a recruiter for a position with an insurance company and had an interview with another home health company. Then something happened.

I was on call one weekend and had an admit in Dallas. I hate doing admits in Dallas. It takes the whole day and I detest the drive but I resigned myself to it. I was preparing myself and planning to be gone all day. Then I got a text message saying that the nurse in Dallas, who I thought was a problem, had agreed to do the admit on Friday. This was the nurse I was so angry about.

At this point, I had a come to Jesus talk with myself. I realized that the reason why I was not getting enough visits had nothing to do with this nurse in Dallas. I am also sure it had nothing to do with a personal vendetta by my boss. I mean after all she just gave me a good review.

I became aware of the fact that I am supposed to bring my burdens to Jesus and lay them at His feet.

So I have changed my approach. I am starting to pray for the nurse in Dallas. Interceding for her to become more competent and timely in finishing her documentation. I am also praying for my boss and my company asking God to impart wisdom as to how the company should proceed. I am praying to continue to be steadfast in my desire for excellence in documentation and timely submission also.

In researching the topic of burdens for this post I happened across a verse which is kind of funny as to how it relates to my situation. Psalms 55:22 says, “Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.”

I got the giggles when I found that verse because I really wanted to head out the door but that is not what the Lord intended. The Lord wanted me to talk with Him about my needs and He has provided just fine for me, despite not having the amount of work I thought I should have.