i have been sharing with my friend, Kathy, why I started this blog. I initially started it to launch an attack on the evil that is present in the family court system. I was so fired up back then. I knew I had been done wrong and I was ready to fight back. I did a bit of ex-husband bashing and slinging mud at the lawyers and judges who defeated me. I was ready to change the world. I intended to take on the devil and expose his lies and deceit.

There was one problem. The more I sought to defeat the devil by exposing him, the more depressed I became. I looked through all of my court records with the eyes of a victim. Thinking that each action had been meant to defeat me. I became so depressed. My only goal at that time was just to make it to the next day without ending my life.

Soon after launching this blog I met my friend and mentor, David Roberts. He shared with me that as a Christian it was my responsibility to bring light to darkness. I fought back. I wanted to expose the darkness of the family law system. I think that you should expose evil and try to change it but I wasn’t doing it in the right way. I became consumed with the evil which had sought to destroy me.

Soon I realized that blogging about what the devil had done may not be what God intended me to do when He called me to be a Christian writer. Slowly, but surely, I started changing my focus. I opened my heart to what God wanted to say to those who live in darkness. I started climbing out of the depths of despair. With each step I sought to glorify God more.

As I think back to what I went through in the family court system I realize that the people who intended to do me harm have unintentionally set me on a path of bearing fruit for God’s kingdom. As I realize this I know that I have forgiven them for the harm that they intended. For this harm, when transformed by God, has produced much good.

As I have looked at my statistics for this blog I have now exceeded 12,500 subscribers and some of my top countries this month are those who are communist. Wow! Who would have thought that the light that God has placed in me would be capable of shining into countries which have forbidden His Word?

Going through the custody battle was a very tough battle to fight. The Lord has sustained my love for my children through it all and has been kind enough to sustain their love for me also. It is amazing that what I once considered a horrible and dark storm in my life has now displayed the beauty of a rainbow. Each of you who has chosen to subscribe to my blog has added to that rainbow and I want to extend my gratitude to you.

Be not deceived. I am not thankful for the people who meant to do me harm. God will deal with them. Nor am I grateful for the horrible slander and attacks I have gone through when the devil used people to attack my character and take money from me which they did not honestly earn. What I am thankful for is a God in heaven who can turn the evil which others intended for me into good which God has intended for those who are struggling and lost.

Genesis 50:19 But Joseph said to them, “Don’t be afraid. Am I in the place of God? 20 You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” (NIV)
I can only hope that through the evil which was visited upon me that maybe I have helped someone else reach for the glory of God.

Romans 8:28. “All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to his purpose.”

I am so thankful to God that His purpose for my life was to cause me to see the rainbow which others meant to be a storm which would drown me. That is truly the sweetest revenge. Glory to God!