i have recently started a Bible study for women. It is a very intimate group. One of the reasons it is intimate is because we are a very small number of women. I was reflecting on this today and I realized that I would rather have just three in my group that were committed to studying the Word of God in depth than to have 100’s that were doing it just for show.

Then I started thinking towards God. You know that is always dangerous for me. lol Whenever I start thinking I tend to think pretty deep and when I start thinking towards God I swim so deep that I can not breathe unless I am feeling His breath coursing through my body.

So I began a discourse with God thanking Him for the two ladies who are in my Bible study. We tear up the Word of God searching for deeper meaning.

Then I started thinking about what really impresses God. I don’t think He is very impressed with my recent deep cleaning. I doubt that He really cares that there is clover in my front yard that needs to be pulled. I think He is probably chuckling when He sees me scurry around my home trying to make sure it is always clean.

I know He delights in the compassion I show my friends and my patients. I believe that it probably warmed His heart to know that I spent all morning working on my next Bible study presentation.

Yet these are all things which emanate from within me. I surmise that they probably don’t really add up to a lot in God’s book. I believe that the only thing which resonates with Him is that when He looks into my heart He sees His Son. I think that the only thing which really may even touch God’s heart is knowing that I have accepted the greatest gift of love that could ever be given. To accept Christ as my Savior broke through all of the obstacles that sin had created for God to love me. It tossed aside my sins and my failings. It caused me to be able to receive mercy and grace from a God who was Holy and righteous beyond measure. It renewed my broken heart and made it whole again. This is a constant battle for me because of sin which I chose only recently to repent of and turn away from.

Throughout my days I am constantly seeking to please others and to achieve a sense of peace within myself. It is a futile effort. True peace is only found in constant prayer and submission to God’s will. For there could never be a love which would equal the love of God the Father, who sacrificed His only perfect Son for my sins. That is the ultimate intimate gift.