I have such wonderful patients that I am so honored to take care of. Some of them have the sweetest families also. The other day one of my patient’s caregivers asked how I was doing. That is a pretty huge question because my job should never be about me. It should always be about my patients.

I thought about it for a minute. This week has been overwhelming with work and all of the other commitments I have. At times I sit at my computer looking at my schedule and freak out, just staring at it, wondering how it is all going to get done.

As I reflected on my week I realized the wonder of it. I told the caregiver “I was busy, but it was a good busy.” I have had times in my life when I had chaos that consumed every minute of my day. Many times this chaos was the fruit of sin that I had chosen to engage in. It was during the years when I was following my fleshly desires. I was miserable.

My schedule now includes two Bible studies, going to church one church on Saturday evening and then meeting with another church on Sunday mornings. Then I am also starting my own Bible study that God has laid on my heart to start. There is my full time job and my blogging, then the novel which I am still struggling to complete. I am also honored to be in a focus group for a novel which has been written by a dear friend whom I deeply love.

I am busy, way busier than I have been in a very long time. But my busy is all good.

When I was busy with chaos I would waste many hours of my day fretting and shedding tears because chaos is a time waster and can seed fear into my mind. I hate chaos and sin creates a ton of chaos.

When I think about my schedule that I am engaged in now, I realize one thing. I am pursuing Christ with reckless abandon. He is the focus of my thoughts and the desire of my heart. I have times when I cry out to Him asking Him to arrange my days because my true desire is to be in ministry, so that every moment is swirling around His majesty. Until that desire is fulfilled I must be content to be busy in a good way.

I am so thankful to God for His presence in my life as I seek Him in my busy life.