Recently I have started seeing someone new. I really care for the guy. I have known him for close to a year and he is genuinely a good guy.
I care for him so much that I have decided to try something new. I have used the Bible for my dating guide. I have prayed when I have had feelings of insecurity or jealousy. I have dressed with class instead of dressing sexy. I have repeatedly told him “no” to intimacy.
The pay off has been amazing. Since we had been friends for awhile when I broke up with the boyfriend that I had given a second chance to, it was easy to slide into a dating relationship with him.
What wasn’t easy was the feelings that I felt for him. I was a wee bit insecure around him. He is remarkably intelligent and had dated someone while I was dating my second chance man.
He had been intimate with her and when I found out more about her I wondered why he had been so blind to her issues? I knew in the first conversation when we talked about her that she was no match for him.
A few weeks after we started dating again I asked him what he was doing and he said he was flying to NM for a medical convention. That is where this lady lived. I had a moment of “Psycho”.
I felt insecure which is such a foreign feeling to me that it totally surprised me. I prayed about it for a moment and then instead of going psycho I asked him if he was tempted to contact her?
He said “No, I am tempted to take you along.”
Seriously? That is the most romantic statement I have ever been the recipient of in my entire life. That literally melted me into a puddle of mush on my kitchen floor.
As I continued to text him throughout that weekend I was so thankful that I hadn’t responded from the psycho moment that I had. He was lonely and he didn’t need me going all nuts on him, what he really needed was for me to comfort him and let him know that I was here for him.
I even worked through how I would respond if he wanted to date her or someone else other than me. I want the best for this man. If the best is not me, then if I really care for him I need to let go.
If you really love someone you love them with open arms. If they love you back they will allow your arms to embrace them. If they don’t, you need to let them go because they never were yours to begin with.
