Today as I was praying I interceded for those whom God placed on my mind. Then I prayed for my children. Then I wandered through my anxieties and fears throwing them up into the heavens hoping that they would stay there.

As I was praying I realized that it was becoming an all about me session. I stopped and redirected my freight train of selfishness and asked God to be at the center of my universe today. I asked Him to impress upon me what He wanted me to do and accomplish.

I prayed that I would not worry and fret over the difficulties that keep plaguing my relationship with my boyfriend. I have talked to God about these things over and over again and nothing has changed so it is time to stop fretting about them and just draw close to the presence of God.

Throughout the day, I became aware that my mind was not focused on God, instead it kept returning to the difficulties, trying to sort through them and come to a resolution. I did focus on the church service though and it was a distinct blessing.

No matter how much I worry about these things it will not change them. Only God can change the heart of man. So to waste my time worrying and fretting is ridiculous.

I instead am trying to train my mind to focus on the holiness of God and praise Him. In Philippians 4:8-9 the Bible says to focus on things which are noble, just, pure, lovely and of good report. I think it is a safe bet that to focus on God would be a good thing.

FYI I talked to my boyfriend in the evening and we sorted through a great many difficulties. So see? Thinking about God and focusing on good things opens up the door to logical resolution and reasoning.

Worry just opens the door to one thing and that is fear.