I had dated a man for over four years some time ago. I remember being so in love with him at a certain point in the relationship but yet I knew he wasn’t the one I was supposed to marry.

He was so good to me in so many ways and he was super kind to my kids. My kids still just adore him.

When I broke up with him I had so much anger built up against him because I was not allowed in the relationship to express my viewpoint if it did not align with his.

Okay now, pick your jaw up off of the floor, I know your mouth flew open in utter disbelief at that last statement.

I know as a blogger I have been anything but shy in expressing my viewpoint. I am not this bold in real life.

I wrote quite a bit about him at first when I started this blog. I guess I was letting out all of that steam that had been under a pressure cooker for 4.5 years.

He continued to write me emails and said he had decided to forgive me because He had turned back to God. When he was first dating me he turned to alcohol so I was thrilled he made the right choice this time around. He also said I would always be the love of his life.

He was sweet enough to remember me on holidays and drop off gifts on my front porch. At first I didn’t care and I didn’t really want them but over time I have appreciated them as gifts from God.

After a year and a half of working through my feelings I am coming to a point of forgiveness for him. That doesn’t mean I will ever marry him but I do appreciate him in a very special way and I will pray that he finds the woman which he is supposed to marry.

When you let go of bitterness and anger and welcome in forgiveness it opens up your heart to a more complete love of the one that God intended you to be with.

If you haven’t learned how to forgive how can you ever learn how to love?